Tuesday, June 28, 2011

TTC Update...

Hey everyone! Just wanted to update you all on our TTC journey!  I know I've been really preoccupied lately with NON-TTC things and I've had a LOT of guest bloggers but I just wanted to drop in with an update!  

Early last week I surged so we were busy doing baby dances all week HAHA  I'm basically just waiting for the TWW period to come and go.  I'm probably going to take a pregnancy test after July 6th since Aunt Flo began her visit on June 6th.  I'll probably test every other day until either Aunt Flo arrives again or if I get a positive!!  
I've had TONS of butterflies in my tummy since last week but I'm really interested to know how early people usually get symptoms.  I know I can just Google but I wanna hear real life stories!!!!  Please share!!!  
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School's out in 3 days and that means I'll get 2 months off work!!!!! WOOHOO!!!  Ed and I have SO much on the agenda for the summer I'm so excited!! I'll have TONS to blog about in the coming days! Here's just some upcoming blogs to look forward to....
-Whistler for Canada Day Long Weekend
 -Family photo proofs from yesterday's shoot
-Our 2 year anniversary is July 11th
-Ed's 29th birthday on July 15th
-3 weddings we'll be attending over the summer
-Possible trip to Victoria/Calgary/Portland/Seattle
And of course...we really HOPE to have good news on here soon!!!!!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Tobey's Birthday Party!

Happy Monday everyone!! Good to be back after a few guest bloggers invaded my blog!!!  It was so great doing blog swaps and having a different audience!  A HUGE thanks to all my blog swappers and guest bloggers!!!  I'm sure we'll do this again!!!!
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Wednesday was Tobey's birthday and he turned ONE!  Ed and I just did a little cake thing with him after dinner and Auntie Stacie and Dash and Chloe came for a visit too! 
New shirt from Auntie Stacie, Dash and Chloe!!  His football totally matches!
Birthday Cake!
YUM!
Family photo...in our PJ's HAHA...Tobey's eyes are LOCKED on his cake!
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On Friday BOTH Tobey and I got our hair done HAHA

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Saturday was Tobey's birthday party and it was a HUGE success!!! We had 6 dogs in our house!!!! Ava, Chico, Dash, Chloe, Bunnie came to play with Tobey and it was sooooo fun, cute and hilarious at the same time!  Kiboo and Belle were missed!!!!! Here's a few photos!
Cake!
Goody Bags!
SIX dogs!!
Eating cake!
 
I can't wait to have kids and do all this with them too!!!  This party was GREAT practice!! 
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Today we had our family shoot so I can't wait to get previews of those!!!! I'm hoping in a few days!!!! The weather was PERFECT (super clear and sunny) and Amy Williams, our photographer, showed us a couple of pics on her camera and the lighting is AWESOME! Stay tuned!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

A New Mom View

Hello, My Journey into Motherhood readers! I'm Laura, and I blog over at Between the Lines regularly. I'm honored to be guest blogging today for Daisy, as this is my first time guest blogging. Just a few weeks ago, I took on a week full of guest bloggers, and Daisy guest blogged for me, so, when she asked me to do the same for her, I was honored and excited!

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I was asked to blog about motherhood today. I'm a new mom, so, please note that everything I'm going to say is from my new mom perspective.

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I've been a mother for a few days shy of 6 months. My son, Ethan, was born on January 7th, a week earlier than his due date exactly. Ethan was due January 14th, but a little less than 2 weeks before my due date, we discovered he was breech. At that time, a c-section was scheduled for 39 weeks, which was January 7th.

But I won't talk about Ethan's birth. I'll talk about the joy it's been having this little boy in my life since his birth.

When you're pregnant, and even before you reach that point, you hear many, many people tell you once you're a mother, everything will change. You'll hear things such as, "Your life will change so much!" and, "You don't know love until you hold that little baby!" and you politely smile and nod. But it's true. So, so true. It's incredible the way you feel when you hold that little baby in your arms for the first time. And one month, two months, three, four, five, almost six months in...I'm amazed at how much that love grows on a daily basis.

Ethan is forever changing. Ask his grandparents and the people at our church who always say he has changed since the last time they saw him from week to week. He changes constantly, not only his physical appearance, but what he does. He's constantly learning and doing new things and trying new things, and it's such a joy.

I'm told I have an easy baby. I'm told I'm lucky. Ethan is a happy baby. There are days he doesn't cry at all - not even once. He's been sleeping straight through the night since he was 3 months old. He took to solids right at 4 months old. This past week we transitioned him from his sleeper in our room to his crib. One week under our belt, he's doing amazingly well.

But I can assure you, even though Ethan is my first baby, and I'm "lucky" and I have an "easy" baby, that even if your child isn't "easy" and things get "hard" - because they do, no matter HOW easy your baby is - it's always worth it. It's always amazing. You'll still find yourself rocking that almost-6-month-old to sleep with tears in your eyes because you're just in awe at this little life.

Motherhood is amazing. It's what I was meant to do - be a mom. When I first met my husband, when we were dating and getting serious (which happened immediately, as we met, and a month later he was deployed to Kosovo), I told him I felt I was meant to be a stay-at-home mom. I was working at a pharmacy at the time, and I told him I loved my job, but I saw myself doing what my mom did - being a stay-at-home mom - because I remembered how great it was, as the child, having my mom at home. And now, I'm lucky enough to have been a "full-time" stay-at-home mom for 5 months, and I'm now back at the pharmacy, working a few hours a night, but still staying at home with my babe during the day every day. Because even though he's "easy" and I'm "lucky" I'm still human, I still need human interaction, and I still need a few hours away from my house. Being able to both stay at home and work and get out almost daily makes me feel even luckier than people tell me I am. A day doesn't go by where I am not thankful to God for the opportunities my little family has been blessed with.

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My life is complete. And it's all because of him. Not that 70 lb. blonde...that's Zia, our Yellow Lab, also known as Ethan's BFF...he loves her. ;)

Motherhood is amazing, but it's not all rainbows and butterflies. The parts that aren't rainbows and butterflies, however, you will hardly remember, because just as quickly as those times may come, they are covered up by a simple glance at that little miracle you created...the one that continues to grow and learn and flourish because of you and that amazing love.

In my birth story, I said it pretty plainly but wholeheartedly. Within moments of his first breaths, "When I spoke, he reacted. When Jarrod spoke, he reacted. He knew us. We were his."

We are his. And I wouldn't trade this "job title" for the world.

Friday, June 24, 2011

My personal journey to Motherhood - Guest Blogger!

I'd like to say a BIG thank you to Daisy for allowing me to be a guest blogger today!  Her and I met over my blog almost a year ago and have since become great real life friends, and hang out all the time!  You can check out my blog here - Baby Grahn in the Making and make sure to follow me!!

This is me, Stacie, and my husband Bryan... also, our 2 yorkies, Dash and Chloe!





Seeing how Daisy's blog is titled "My Journey into Motherhood" I thought it would be fitting to tell my personal story about this crazy and bumpy adventure!  If you know me, and know my blog, then you know my husband and I have been trying for 4 years this month!  It hasn't always been easy, but I have certainly learned a lot along the way about how it works, and about myself. And that is what I would like to focus on!

Things I have learned about myself

I never thought I could handle not being in control of something, especially when it comes to my life.  I am a planner by nature, and I get giddy when I have projects in the works!  I love to plan, dream, and imagine my life going certain ways, and picture what it would be like to have children running around my house.  Wanting to start our family at 23 (me) and 27 (hubby) seemed like such a good age!  We were young, healthy, and eager to have a child enter our life.  Our first month of trying was June 2007.  Hard to believe it was 4 years ago right now!  I remember finding out when I would ovulate, and then making sure we took full advantage of that prime baby making time!  I was so excited to pee on that first pregnancy test one morning, and was confused as to why a second line never appeared.  I thought it was a dud!  Little did I know in that moment what we were heading into for the next 4 years!  I just brushed that first month off thinking how unlikely it would be for us to conceive on the first try anyway, and was hopeful and excited for the next month!  We ended up buying our first place in July of that year, and our "prime time" was spent priming and painting walls, and very little baby making took place, so I was not shocked when my period started shortly after.  August of that year really threw me through a loop!  It was our third month of trying, and as nature would have it, I was "late".  I believe I was late by 3 or 4 days, so of course the butterflies set in!  I thought "Oh my gosh, THIS is it!!!"  I started driving with my hand on my tummy, and my best friend even started "talking" to my belly in hopes I was pregnant!  I remember having company over one of those nights, and I just went up to my bedroom and sat thinking at how our life was probably going to change.  We were so excited at me just being late!  It wasn't long after that dreadful old Aunt Flo arrived, and our hopes were wiped away.

Every month the same thing would happen, we'd get very excited, and then very let down.  Early into 2008 I found out two of my best friends (at the time) were expecting and were due 3 days apart.  Not something either of them planned.  I was so over the moon happy for them, but felt really left out.  I didn't understand why we weren't getting pregnant ourselves!  It felt like as soon as they made their announcement of expecting, a snow ball effect happened, and literally every single person we knew was getting pregnant.  It started to hit me more than Bryan, and I became very weepy and sad a lot!

September 2008, just over a year since we first started trying, we decided we needed to see a doctor.  So we went to our GP who sent us for a series of tests.  Sperm analysis for Bryan and ultrasounds for me!  Everything came back rather normal... Bryan had a decent sperm count, and I had nothing wrong (that they could see) except for a cyst or two on my ovaries, but I was told that was normal.  So we didn't know where to go from there.  We continued to try every month, but the pregnancy announcements were getting harder and harder.  It wasn't until spring of 2009 that I went back to my GP and asked for a referral to a fertility clinic.  May of that year is when we had our first appointment and I was told we had to do more invasive tests!  This was not something I was prepared for.  I had to go for an HSG exam.  I really had no idea what it was, so I booked my appointment that afternoon.  It wasn't until a few days later that I googled it (what in the world would we do without Google?) and found out HOW it was performed, and that I had to be in a "frog leg position" on an XRAY table.  That was enough right there to send me into a crying mess!  There is NO way I was laying on a table, legs sprawled wide open with a doctor inserting metal inside my lady parts!  HECK NO!!!  NO WAY!  I cancelled the appointment faster than I made it, and basically refused to go any further with this.  The doctors were stupid, and were just trying to embarrass me is what I thought.  That was one loooooong year!  I refused and refused, and refused some more.  We were going to do this on our own.  Screw doctors and their weird tests!

Flash forward to February 2010.  I had just about had enough of this infertility business, and knew I needed to suck it up and go for the HSG test.  I phoned the clinic the first day of my cycle and had my appointment for March 4th 2010.  The nerves set in and I felt like that date was haunting me!!  I called my cousin who had this test done twice during her battle with infertility, and she talked me through it over the phone as many times as I needed.  She also sent me some adavan to take before the test just to calm my nerves. 

That morning came and Bryan took me to the clinic.  I felt like I was walking to an electric chair or something.  I have had a huge phobia of doctors my entire life, and this was my worse nightmare coming true.  Of course the clinic was old, dingy, flickering lights in the back room, and an old haggered looking nurse walking me to the bathroom to get naked and put on a paper sheet.  Are you kidding me?!  The exam room was as gross and sterile as you could get!!!  I had to lay on a metal table with a puppy pad underneath me.  Nice!  I sat on the end of the table and burst into tears.  I was TERRIFIED!!!!  I asked if my husband could PLEASE be in there with me as the doctor started jamming metal and all sorts of different equipment inside of me.  I needed to look up at his face, not the giant xray machine that offered zero comfort.  They agreed, but he had to leave during the exam because of the radiation.  It helped me so much having his hand to hold.  I'm not even going to lie, the exam HURT and was intense cramping for a solid 3 minutes.  The longest part of  it all was the prep, and the actual pictures didn't take long at all.  When it was over I practically ran out of that room, and I shudder now every time I pass that place on the street.

A few weeks later we got our results from the doctor at our fertility clinic and he said my tubes were cleared and there was "nothing wrong".  They labeled us with having "unexplained infertility" and didn't investigate any further!  We moved on to doing IUI with clomid for 2 months (April and May 2010) both unsuccessful.  We took a bit of a break as it is very emotionally and financially draining!

January 2011 I got a referral from my GP again, but this time to see a specialist that is an OBGYN but also does diagnostic laperoscopies to see if you have endometriosis.  I have had incredibly painful periods my entire life, and after reading the symptoms for this, I knew I had it!!  Not to mention, it is a contributing factor to infertility.  My appointment was made for April 5th, but I was able to get in a week early in the days leading up to it.  I was nervous and excited for this appointment because I was really hoping the doctor would agree to do surgery on me.  He mentioned how he disliked doing that surgery because 9 times out of 10, the patient doesn't even end up having endo, but he said given our case he would do it.  We were happy, thrilled, relieved, and so many other excited feelings!  He scheduled me for May 24th, and that day couldn't have come sooner!

Well as I write this entry, my surgery was 1 month ago today!!!  When I woke up from going under, my doctor came right over to check on me.  I was so groggy and could barely open my eyes, but I will never forget the words he said.  He told me that they did find endometriosis all over the backside of my uterus and that I had a "nasty amount" of it.  Thankfully during this surgery, they are able to treat it as soon as they find it.  He also saw some cysts and I think those were removed too?  But I can't remember.  All I remember is him saying all of the endo was gone! He also performed a D&C just to clean me out completely, as well as widen my cervix and clean my tubes.  I cried tears of joy and asked if I can even have children because of it, and he said YES!!  He told me I am on a short leash for the next 3 months and he wants me pregnant by the time my 3 month check up rolls around (which is August 9th).

Finally, 4 years after starting this journey we are getting answers and I believe starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel.  This month will be our first month trying to conceive since my surgery, and I a feeling cautiously optimistic!  If I have what seems to be a normal uterus, then we should have no problem, right?  Well I hope so!!  I am still preparing myself for it taking a few months, but I can't help but be excited for this next week as we try to catch that egg!

I have learned a lot about myself these past 4 years.  I am stronger than I thought I would be!  I am ok with not being in control of every detail in my life.  I truly do have to let go and let God!  I am more in love with my husband than I've ever been and happy for this time we have had as just us and our dogs!  I have learned true patience as well, and it's something that hasn't come easy!

Thank you for taking the time to read my post!  If you'd like to continue on with the rest of my journey, please follow my blog, "Baby Grahn in the making"  I love new followers, and hopefully you are catching on at that right time!  Hopefully happy news will be in my blog soon!!

Blog Swap Today!!!

Hey everyone!! I'm blog swapping again today so head over to my friend Stacie's blog to read MY entry!!!!!!

Have an awesome weekend...I have a VERY busy one and will blog all about it next week!!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Happy Birthday Tobey - Photoblog!



Happy Birthday to my furbaby TOBEY!!!!  
Mommy and Daddy loves you SOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!


Today Tobey turns 1 year old (7 human years).  We've had him for a total of 10 months now and have LOVED every moment of being his parents.  He truly is THE sweetest dog and he really doesn't have a single bad bone.  He's NEVER aggressive and always gentle.  I feel like we've lucked out in the puppy department!  Before we got him everyone was telling us how puppies are a HUGE hassle and that we should be prepared to have our home in ruins.  Well Tobey has NEVER eaten, chewed off or even bit into anything around the house that we wouldn't want him to.  I think he peed indoors a total of 25 times MAX and since the 3rd month we've had him he's been asking US to open the door to let him out! He snuggles when we ask him to, kisses us on command and leaves you alone when you don't want to be bothered.  We love him SO SO MUCH!!!


Oh...and he just happens to be THE cutest Yorkshire Terrier pup around.....see for yourselves!!!
This is the photo that was SENT to us when we inquired about a male puppy
This photo was taken the very first time we went to see him...we fell in love
First time holding him...before he was even ours!
This was the day we went to pick him up...he was finally ours!
Heading home...
First photo at his new home...toys of his very own!
I'm a Mommy!!
Look at that face!
Such small paws...
Snuggling with Mommy is a favourite pastime...
Favourite position to sleep in...
Best place so sit on the couch...between Daddy's legs!
Napping with Daddy...
First friend....Belle!!!
Can't quite make it up or down the stairs yet....
First time going for a walk...he LOVED it!
First outfit...a plaid vest!!!
Loving the grass!
His new playground...
So tiny!
Halloween costume...he's my BUM BUM (bumble bee)
Too cute!
New Halloween toy!
First haircut!!!!
Sleeping in the parent's bed...
Loving the big bed...
Car rides are fun!
He found a new way to 'play' with his toys...
With friend Dash and Auntie Stacie!
New bed and toys...so spoiled!
Another shirt....Juicy Couture!!!  
At the pumpkin patch!!!
Mommy and Tobey
Family photo!
Yes Daddy this is the one!!
Halloween party...with Belle!! Matching costumes!!
Auntie Amy and Belle with us at the Halloween party!
Officially a Vancouver Canucks fan!!
First time meeting his new friend Chloe!!!
With friends Dash and his new sister Chloe...and Auntie Stacie!
He found his favourite place to sit while in the car...
Christmas blanket!
Sitting under the Christmas tree is fun!
Santa suit!
Tobey the Scentsy mascot!
First snowfall...
Wasn't so sure....
Snow beard!
Christmas morning...opening his gifts!
SOOO HAPPY!
With Grandpa...
...and grandma!
Another new bed....
Going up and down the stairs oh so easily now...
First time a friend slept over!! BUNNIE!!!
2 straight sleepovers in a row...this time with Belle!
Mommy's birthday...with Auntie Mandy!
Celebrating Chinese New Year in style!
He got 'fixed'
I'm still cute!
Uncle Neil graduated...and I attended!
First hockey playoff game!!!!
Strolling downtown...


We'll be celebrating tonight (just with Mommy and Daddy) and having his birthday party at the doggy park on Saturday! Will post about it next week!!!