The Grass is Always Greener on the Other Side...

 

You know the saying..."The Grass is Always Greener on the Other Side?"  Right now the side I'm on is 'Married and No Kids'.  I long to have children of my own someday.  At times I see other people with babies and I wish that was me.  Well lately I've been thinking about what it would be like if I WERE on that side.  I know myself really well and I KNOW that when I finally do get on the 'other side' and have my own kids I will totally look back on my PRE-kids days and wish I could have the freedom I have now.  

All my Mommy friends always tell me...it's SO worth it having kids and it's SO rewarding.  I don't doubt that it is BUT...I'm sure they ALL wish from time to time that they could spend their Saturday with their girlfriends downtown on the patio having lunch and then then head to the beach for a few hours and just chat and laugh.  That's what I did yesterday with mine =)  I'm totally trying to soak in EVERY last drop of ME time before I AM a Mommy.  

I love to travel and there ARE still a few places I wish I could go before I have kids.  But between money and time it might not be possible and I've already pretty much accepted that.  That's why Ed and I have our little plan to wait until next Spring to try again if we're not pregnant by the end of next month.  

The thing is when I start thinking like this I question myself if I'm truly ready to be  Mommy (again!).  NOT being pregnant and wanting to makes me wonder more and more if this is God's way of telling me that I'm not ready yet or this isn't my time yet...which I am TOTALLY fine with but I wish I could just KNOW instead of trying every single month and NOT drinking wine or eating raw foods during my TTW period.  Everytime I've done that and then got my period I feel like I wasted time.  Time that I COULD have been doing things that I like....I drinking wine and eating raw foods.  Time like planning for trips instead of when to start peeing on ovulation strips again (not that I hate it...it's kinda fun!).  

 The thought of me resenting my own child makes me angry with myself but I'm thinking there will be days where you DO wish you could have your freedom back. Did any of you ladies feel this way when you were trying?  Self doubting or wondering if  you even SHOULD be trying yet?  Or scared that once you ARE a Mommy it wouldn't be all that you hoped it would be?  That you MIGHT have days where you resent it. 

Our Wedding Day Music - Musicblog!

I was bored today so I went on Youtube and watched/listend to all the songs from our wedding...thought I'd share since wedding planning season is just starting for all those ladies who got engaged over the summer (seems to be the most popular time to propose!)...enjoy!!

Spring by Vivaldi - This song was played by a strings trio as guests 

were arriving for the ceremony

Canon in D by Pachelbel - This is the song the string trio played as my

bridesmaids walked down the asile

So Much In Love by All-4-One - The song that was sung A Capella by 4 of our 

guy friends while I walked down the aisle

 

Rondeau by Mouret - This is the song that the string trio played while Ed and 

I poured our unity sand and signed our marriage certificate

The Arrival of the Queen of Sheba by Handel - This song was 

played by the string trio as Ed and I walked up the asile after we kissed 

for the first time as husband and wife
 

Pocketful of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield - This song was played 

as Ed and I entered into the reception room announced for the first time 

as Mr. and Mrs. Edmund Go
 

You and Me by Lifehouse - This was the song to our first dance <3

  

Sweet Dream (Are Made of This) by Eurythmics - This was the song that 

played while we cut our cake
 

I Need a Girl (Part One) by P. Diddy featuring Usher and Loon - 

This was the song that played during the garter toss 

Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It) by Beyonce - 

This was the song that played during the bouquet toss

 

Just Dance by Lady Gaga - This was the first song that played to call 

everyone up onto the dance floor

Student Husband

My husband Ed is an electrician.  He's currently in his 4th year as an apprentice and just started school last week to complete his last year of schooling.  His course is 10 weeks long so that means no fun for him until the course is done.  This is the last of 4 courses and after he's done he will finally get paid the full pay an electrician should get...no more apprentice wages! It's been nice having him home earlier from school (he's off at 2:30) and since I'm not back to work until September, I'm pretty much feeling like a mom to a college kid HAHA.  All I do is make him snacks and bring them to him in his office and go in after a while to clear his empty plates.  

While Ed is busy being a good student, I've been busy myself too! I've been getting my creative juices flowing by making cards! Here's just SOME of them...

100 Random Facts About Me!

1. I got married on July 11, 2009
2. My birthday is January 19, 1983
3. I have no children
4. Ed and I bought our first house in August 2010
5. Exactly ONE day after we got the keys to our house Ed and I picked up our puppy Tobey
6. I'm left handed
7. I LOVE Mariah Carey...I have ALL her CDs
8. My first CD ever was Coolio's Gangsta's Paradise....yo
9. I love to read
10. I collect Starbucks city mugs....any, not just ones of where I've been to
11. I LOVE super hot, humid summer weather
12. I'm a sodium girl...I prefer chips to chocolates
13. I love to shop
14. I prefer my hair long
15. I'm the oldest of 4 kids
16. I have 2 sisters and 1 brother, they are 3, 4.5 and 5.5 years younger than me
17. I'm 5'3" tall
18. I work with children with Special Needs
19. I have a Bachelors in Arts majoring in Psychology and minoring in English and Early Childhood Education from Simon Fraser University
20. I am super girly
21. Ed and I are HUGE Smallville fans
22. Tobey's birthday is June 23, 2010
23. Ed's birthday is July 15, 1982
24. Ed is almost 6 months older than I am
25. Tobey is a Yorkshire Terrier pup
26. Both my parents were born and raised in Hong Kong and immigrated to Canada after they got married
27. I can only SPEAK Cantonese....I can't read or write it
28. I was born and raised in Vancouver, BC, Canada
29. Ed and I honeymooned in Hawaii (Big Island) for 12 glorious days
30. I've only ever been on 1 cruise...to Alaska with my family
31. The next place I want to travel to is either New York, Miami and Disneyworld or a cruise somewhere HOT
32. I love Starbucks
33. I HATE snakes
34. I'm 90% deaf in my left ear
35. I have glasses but almost always wear contacts
36. I'm a Scentsy consultant
37. I love Facebook/Twitter/Blogger
38. I also do wedding invitations on the side and make cards of all types
39. I do not like eating veggies
40. I will eat corn and potato everyday if I had to
41. My wedding dress was a Maggie Sottero
42. The first concert I ever went to was Jessica Simpson
43. The last concert I was at was Michael Buble
44. I've only ever been to 3 concerts...the 2nd one was Backstreet Boys
45. The first time I went to Disneyland was last summer (2010)...Ed and I went for our 2nd honeymoon...we also went to San Diego, LA, Universal Studios, San Francisco, Portland and Seattle...ROADTRIP
46. I love to travel
47. I want 2 kids...twins...1 boy, 1 girl
48. I'm a LITTLE OCD...just a LITTLE
49. I love having my picture taken
50. If I could afford it I would go to Europe for 3 months straight
51. My favorite colour is PINK
52. For my wedding I made a 23 page itinerary for all my helpers
53. Ed is the youngest of 4 boys and has a younger sister
54. I have NO niece or nephews from either sides of our families
55. I'm a hopeless romantic
56. I'm a lot like Monica from Friends
57. My BFF and I have been BFFs since we were 8/9 years old...that's over 20 years
58. My perfume is Chanel Mademoiselle
59. I use a MacBook Pro
60. My fave Disney princess is Snow White
61. I collect children's books
62. I used to scrapbook a lot and wish I would get back into it
63. We have a 46" TV
64. I want to have a full on vow renewal on our 5th or 10th wedding anniversary...FULL ON as in dress and all...probably a destination one
65. I got baptized when I was 15 alongside my BFF
66. I grew up at a Southern Baptist church
67. Christmas is THE best holiday
68. Summer is THE best season
69. I want to be a stay-at-home-mom after I'm done having kids
70. I wish my job paid more
71. I'm really scared that I will have a child with Special Needs
72. I'm a Capricorn
73. I'm the year of the Dog
74. My doctor once measured my legs and they is supposedly a 2cm difference in length
75. My fave store to shop at is Aritzia because they have the sizes 00 and xxs...which fits me
76. I have NEVER had a facial
77. I'm quite the swimmer...when I was 17 I got certified as as swimming instructor and got my life guarding certificate
78. I'm always cold even in the summer
79. I love to travel and wish I could do more of it
80. I LOVE weddings
81. I'm usually a happy person but do NOT piss me off
82. I drive a Toyota Rav-4
83. My dream Mommy car is a Mercedes-Benz ML-Class SUV in White
84. I have an iPhone
85. Instagram is fun
86. I once wanted to be a Pediatric Nurse
87. I LOVE to vaccum
88. I'm a neat freak
89. I wore my mom's traditional Chinese dress on my wedding day
90. I wash my hair every other day otherwise it'd be too dry
91. I married for love
92. My fave TV shows are all the CSIs, all the Law & Orders, Criminal Minds and Without a Trace
93. My fave reality TV shows are The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Big Brother, The Amazing Race, Bachelor Pad, all the Chef Ramsey shows and all The Real Housewives shows
94. I think C. S. Lewis is amazing
95. I like spending time along in peaceful quiet
96. I never leave the house without my hair and makeup done
97. I wish I could dress to the 9's everyday
98. I'm not a fan of sports cars
99. If I was super rich I would donate so much to children's charities
    
100. Jesus is my everything

I LOVE Scentsy - Fall/Winter 2011 Collection Sneak Peak!!!

So pretty much all of you already know I'm a Scentsy consultant!  

The new catalog for the Fall/Winter 2011 season was just released yesterday and I am STOKED about all the new stuff coming out next month!!!  It's like PRE-Christmas for me because now everyone can start planning their Christmas shopping lists (I totally start in September!).  I have so many friends who have bought Scentsy from me and love it so much that they're all planning on giving  the gift of Scentsy this season.  If you're stumped for new gift ideas...check it out! It's THE newest thing in candles!  Here's just a little preview.....

I'm most excited about this last photo. Every season Scentsy has a charity item and this season it will be Sasha the Bear Scentsy Buddy.  It's $36 and ALL proceeds will go towards......RONALD MCDONALD HOUSE CHARITIES!!!!!! How awesome is THAT?